Fortune

Ha ha, I'm glad I didn't get into that little ball-orgy the others were formin' there.. Would'a been fun, but I got better things to do.

Its the final days of desperation, I have a month and a half to get ready to live among Angels, not to mention 50 bucks to make to pay off a ticket I owe.. at.. some time during this month I've seen to forgotten. But hey, it seems to be working out better, once the move into my dad's place is all finished. Plus, I eventually gotta get that license ticket taken care off, another 200 bucks there.. but that's all for when I sell the car. A careful driver will never be pulled over.

All that leaves is the feelings I have about Kat and (slight retch) Clayton. Should I be jealous of him? Probably not, because no matter what happens.. she cant appreciate him the way she does me. I think! Me and her shared something akin to love past most.. it was a special time. I don't think he's got what it takes to get to that point, despite striking at my queen in my absence.. but let 'im try! There's space in her life for another guy, but I'll be damned if there's space for another ME!

Ahh, I do feel good this time. Oh, and the warrior I started the other night, Trollium, is apparently quite good with people. Started a little Horde Discussion Symposium in the Valley of Trials as I quested, people got into it. Look for my new WoW guild, Idiots and Dreamers, to be up soon! Finally, things might be hinting at a possible settling point. My next post will be either from Dad's or Kat's!!

- T

O, blind hearts

It don't matter what awful/misunderstood things happen, all it seems to take is a cheery 8-bit song sometimes..

Well A-kon is over again, the motion, the music, the times, the boobs.. for another year, on hold. AnimeFEST, I wont be in town for, but I've got what I need for a while:

- Dr. Steel pin
- Signed porn.
- 1 con girl story.
- 6 lbs lost in the rave (if found, please don't return. I won't need it)
- the 'wrecked muscles' feeling.

But.. I regret being with the girl. She drove me wild, but we might not ever seen each other again. Its a grand torture!! Makes me pine for Kat even more, who is luckily showing up sometime this month! I guess the feeling was nothing more than that fleeting moments love of a stranger, feeling that entire life all bottled into the blink of an eye. I really hate having that sometimes. But then again, its a part of the Memory, so its got to be important.
News and movies for GH3 has appeared, along with a brutal songlist and Les Paul for 360 owners.. which would be terrific normally if some mysterious affliction hadn't mysteriously afflicted my machine!! I swear to the PITS that if it's broken 'cos of someone here, I-WILL-KILL-THEM!!

End of July can't come quick enough.
- T

Strange Energies

Yes, I figured it was time to stop being so archival about this and let them eat.. titles. So, onto the strange business at hand.

For about two days now, I have been courting (in the mildest and most juvenile of senses) a new friend, Lauren. Pretty neat chick who knows of some nice nintendocore bands, including HORSE the band... also got my mind working as to where I'd heard of Interabang..but she also had this strange horny streak, really got under my brain. It was neat.
But for all the innuendo, she was just an average unusual girl that was fun to talk with. Strangely enough, she's also some ex of Ian's, which had me nervous 'til she said they're not too friendly. So me and her trade licks all day, came with me to find Ashley late at night at some place. We had fun, but I didn't wanna leave her alone at the apartment with the Exalted squad.. oh! Forgot, Ashley also needed me to drive her to DFW this morning at 4am.. and as disoriented and hopped up on Monster, still made it back to the apartment.... even after unidentifiable crown vic swooped up behind me. But I get back.. cant find Lauren anywhere, until I look closer to what Ian's clutching in his bed.

I cant exactly describe what I feel, but it had better be some egotistical misunderstanding or the walls are gonna bleed.. oh yeah, hopefully I can borrow a bit of money from grandpa, kaci, and maybe Ian to get the license back.
Its getting hard to gather my energies these days, I cant figure out what I need to do..

(8)

Well, dont know how I made it this far so illegally, but here I am..

It stands now that I must borrow a series of dollars from seperate folk to get my liscense reinstated, 'cos those piggish bastards at the DPS dont want to give a break. So, the search for more money goes on.. plus, I got insurance to think of.. dammit

Well, not much has changed since last time, but well... I guess I've always got dad's place.

*sigh* and I gotta circumvent sam's ex's attempts on his new girlfriend.. got lots to do, I suppose.

(7)

What flitting times I live in..

Well, I got the lights on the car fixed and optimized. Turns out the fuses actually were broken this time! So now, all that remains is a tire replacement, oil change, inspection, and uh.. oh, a new fuel filter. That done, I think I have a chance at keeping the car through the move. I'd like to, since I have such a bitchin mileage (mystery mileage, as it is never the same two days).


The days seem to be getting shorter as A-kon and the move get closer. While I'd have all of May to make money at Tien An Men, I'm not sure I'll be able to register for kon, and the room's gonna come close if I'm not rich enough. However, if that doesnt go through, Chris'll just have to deal.. I just wanted to bring the 360 out there and bring the heat on Guitar Hero.. I've nearly mastered The Trooper on expert, just gotta get the spacing on the low-to-hi weedlies after the second chorus.

But things're looking slightly up finally, the prospect of money's got that happenin. Plus, Mr. Angel reckons he can just drive over here to get me and my stuff, saving on money and boredom. It's gonna be a blast, hopefully!!


- T

(6)

It's becoming terminally apparent that if I dont acquire a job soon, I may have to actually become worried about stuff.

As of yesterday, there are three options:
Work at Lifetime Fitness, despite the preconception that the interviewing period will take forever.
Work at Olive Garden as a busboy. I make fine money per hour, do very little and get a percentage of tips. Top choice.
Work at Panera's. They will need a replacement for Erica in a week and my ability to not move to California a month later is prime ingridient for new employees in that area

I guess its not totally hopeless, since I could always get spotted by Casey and Ian, just.. I've got a tire to replace, a car to get inspected, a convention to plan for (and pay for), and a hotel room to pay on. As I say, the job will help everything work out. Oh, and I gotta get money together for a ride into town for Kat, so she doesnt have to worry anymore.

I've also got a holiday planned in the summer, go down to Galveston with Leigh, which sounds spiffy. She's a highly interesting friend'a mine. I think she plans to help me overcome my fear of the ocean, but hopefully it wont be terrifying or anything. Hell, I could end up just enjoying myself for once!

But first comes this job situation, which is rapidly approaching critical. If I dont have a job by the end of next week, could be in a spot of trouble.

- T

(5)

Evening was too comfortable yesterday. The fan, the rain.. I fell asleep around 7 and awoke ten minutes ago.


Have you ever slept so soundly that you fell asleep in your dreams? And found yourself in even stranger worlds? Normally, whenever I have good dreams (or better) I can never remember them.. and I still dont remember what happened this time, but I remember some strange disorientation, like awaking in my room to end up wandering off somewhere inexplicable, like in most of my dreams. And whatever I was doing, it felt like it was taking days to happen. Maybe time can slow or even stop when you're asleep.


Well, whatever has happened, I'm awake at a decent hour and well-rested for the first time in months. Time to go find a job. Fortune was kind enough to refund my spending at the mall yesterday (with a well-placed fiver sitting under the car when we came back) so I'm hoping it will be even kinder in getting me a job today. Next week is the last week of the month and I'm running out of options. *sigh* I wish it were still simple days, just getting to school on time to copy work and hang out with friends.. hiding in the auditorium, invading alternate lunches. Oh, and nearly not graduating for skipping school too much only to find that nice loophole that allowed me the standard degree, even without taking a language course! Wa-ha-haaa!

My feet aren't cold this morning either. Perhaps this is a good sign.

- T

(4)

Well, its an unusual business.. but it was helpful. I overslept-again- and missed the right hour to go see the guys at Panera's, but I did have a fruitful day at Chopsticks today, earned about 75 bucks. So added expenses, gas and the groceries I bought, I have made it to the 110 dollar mark! At least insurance is happening!

However, I've also got that front left tire to worry about. The cloth or somethin' is starting to show and while I cant feel any air loss, the sturdiness also makes me think it might pop at any moment. Depending on what happens tomorrow, I may go into Richardson to do an oil change with dad, or I might stay in Mckinney and get another tire, since the other three are mysteriosly pristine. Oh, and I cant get the broken light in the brake light housing out, It broke and I cant push it down and out for some reason.

Still, it was a good day of work.. and despite having one eye in back, no current inspection and a crappy exterior, the Beaten Luck was surprisingly unnoticed by any police today. But eighteen bucks of gas!! Man, what is with the sudden surge in price? Are they just up there with a big roulette wheel of gas prices, " place your bets, how much can we take? Place your bets!"

Geh, I hope something awesome happens soon, like for the world. This shooting in Virginia tech's got everybody scared again, that shooting should've never even happened!

- T

(3)

Again, I am awake through the night, playing WoW and watching Samurai Champloo.

Is this what mom means when she calls me irresponsible and shiftless? Probably! But.. if I had a job, it'd be a great deal different. What that means to me is money, and unfortunately its the one thing I need the most these days.. and when it's coming in (like in the old pizza hut days) it removes my worries and sets me to thinkin of the future. Like A-kon, that'll be a helluva time this year.

However, the immediate future beckons stiffer. I am going out to look up the prospects I have. If I acquire either job, it'll be a fine leap into the summer months. You, whoever has managed to find this log, will also be seeing a lot less posts at this hour. Lets both hope for success eh? Please?

Right, gotta catch a power nap and get cleaned up. Then I gotta tidy the apartment and get these dishes outta my room and into the machine. If I am employeed today, I can begin to smile!

- T

(2)

I could look for universal significance in a kitten, which would eat up the time of any decent thinker or crackhead, but I cant today.

I could wonder about the other things.. the attached feeling to the beach, but suffocating fear of the ocean? The spaced-out look people tell me I get when I see bright blue lamposts. The strange deja vu in the places I've never been. The obsessing over this mysterious nostalgia is actually the only thing that kept me going sometimes, when everything had gone to hell, I could only remark on the nearby houses reminding of something or a song I had found. When I was away from home for so long, sleeping in a scary place.. I whistled out songs from Megaman until I fell asleep, went over comedy routines aloud. I was never alone with no one around.

But after I went to Florida to spend time with Fellus, I realized that becoming older had taken some of that ability, that when I left after two wonderful weeks.. I couldnt be happy again 'til I was back. It was all missing from my life, the nights we spent with her, mike and me. Still, the memories keep me warm when its coldest in my room. Maybe, this too is a form of whistling..

- T

(1)

This will be the personal one.

Okay, big trouble this month. I have no job, the car is a zombie, the month is half over, my liscense is being held hostage by the Plano authorities, I'm in an artistic slump (the goofing off is getting done, but the art's missing in action) and unfortunately, I'm trapped in this damn apartment.

So where's the good news?

I found this Zombie Posessor guy on here.. and he's done covers for almost all the songs I could think of! Talent like that's definitely wasted on that Newgrounds crowd. Ha ha .. sometimes, I'm glad I cant escape!

- T